Frustration and hiatus

January 27, 2010 Usagi

Things have been so downhill it’s not even funny. I’m in a casting slump for one and then to make it worse my computer died. I JUST got it a few months ago and BAM, won’t turn on. So instead of being able to work on stuff and a new demo reel to perhaps start 2010 off right, I’m at a halt.

Thankfully, the computer is under warranty so I shipped it back to be fixed. Also, this time around I have my mom’s old PC to use. I’ve been able to chit chat with people and record auditions. However, for some reason it only records stereo in on channel (left side) so I’m weary of actually recording many lines due to quality.

Not to mention the usual frustrations. Trying as hard as possible and yet not seeing much for it. I try hard, I put myself out there, I audition as much as possible and keep practicing but still less talented hack jobs get noticed. And no, it’s not envy. I envy people with actual talent who have reason for their praise. It’s them I want to be like.

I did get back a really positive critique for an audition I did though, it made me happy. They noted that I had improved since the last time I auditioned for them. However, the role I truly want, my voice doesn’t fit for. Amazing acting but as usual, my old geezer voice gets in the way. I wish I knew how to better expand on the higher range area without sounding fake or cartoony.

Ah well, I guess that’s part of the process. It’s only been a year so I shouldn’t expect to be amazing any time soon. It would be nice if the projects I actually get a part in came out though. ¬.¬

Aside from all that, my hiatus is part computer and part personally. I may seem wordy at the moment because I’m sitting in a hospital waiting room. I’m supposed to have surgery today if everything goes well so I won’t be around until the weekend depending how I feel. I’m very bored, tired and hungry along with nervous. I should be under the knife by now but shit takes so long at these places!

I don’t want to get into too much detail and I’ll cut this post here (no pun intended) since I know most of this is because I’m bored and have no one to talk to at the moment. But I needed an update so why not a chunky one.

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